I used to read this blog, but she stopped writing letters.

2 Dec

I feel so naked. Vulnerable and scared. I’m like a virgin. I want it, but I don’t know how to go about it. I crave it, but it would cross a line. It would turn something into a different thing than it once was.

I wonder, will other people notice the difference in me? Is something new what I really want? Are they even ready, or thinking the same things?

Maybe none of it matters, because this moment is mine. And I want it.

I am, of course, speaking about the abandonment of my usual “letter” format.  Perverts. I use the words “naked” and “virgin” and “it”…and somehow everything becomes about sex.  Typical. But in a way, I suppose this is like sex. Only without the sweat, and the penis, and the orgasm…okay, I’m not sure about the orgasm yet. Give me some more time, I’m almost…there.

I don’t know why I just went that far,  but it does have that same sense of freedom.

(Cue Music)

EPIC

I love this blog. When I started it, I was highly inspired by my letters. I have lists everywhere of stuff I would like to write letters to. I still plan to use my letters, but I sometimes feel restricted by the format.

I’d like to be able to post so many other things. I write a lot of short stories, I like to just rant sometimes. Then I don’t post them because they don’t fit into the format.  If I hadn’t already named the blog, I’d probably call it “A.D.D. and Some Letters”

I considered deleting the whole blog and starting a new one, but I like my readers and I don’t want to have to find more people I like. For some of us (points at self) it’s not that easy to like people 😉

So here I am – tearing my safety net into tiny little pieces and making bad sexual references.  Fun,fun.

See. It IS sort of like being a virgin; even the fumbling feels pretty good.  Okay I quit, I’m Sorry.

**I am fighting an intense urge to sign my name here**

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4 Responses to “I used to read this blog, but she stopped writing letters.”

  1. TheIdiotSpeaketh December 2, 2011 at 9:21 pm #

    Please keep this blog Kelly, but if you have the itch to branch out into other styles of writing, feel free…. I’m sure we will enjoy anything that you write….especially posts with frequent use of the word sex, nudity, breasts, etc………. 🙂

    • dearlifeofmine December 2, 2011 at 11:34 pm #

      Thank you 🙂 I’ll throw in some nudity here and there too. Seriously Mark, I cannot thank you enough for all your comments and input.

  2. workingtechmom January 1, 2012 at 1:34 am #

    I laughed as I read this because I’ve thought for a long time that I wish I had thought of the idea before you of the ‘dearlifeofmine’ and writing the letters. Hang tough, write letters when you want and other things when you choose, and then allow me to write letters only blog sometimes in honour of you!

    Happy new year blogging friend.

    • dearlifeofmine January 23, 2012 at 9:26 pm #

      I don’t own letters!!! Go for it darling!!!!! You can even guest blog if you want 🙂

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